What's The Best

You won't realize that someone loves you that much until you experienced one. And I just realized it yesterday and it's about my recent boyfriend. He came to my life years ago as a friend, and years later he came to my very life as a boyfriend. And I feel safe with him, he knows me well in and out and you rarely can found someone like that in your life. And the most amazing thing he keep telling me is " I accept you the way you are". It sounds cliche, I know, but I know he meant it too. He keep telling me to eat a lot of food so I get fat until there's no man flirting on me or me flirting on them. Well..

I had a bad experience of love years ago, when love wasn't for me and him but I kept the faith (read:stubborn) that someday eventually God will give us a chance.But believe me, when God said no, then it's a no. If you keep your stubbornness, you'll block God's best way for yourself. The words "everything has a reason" is true, even though I know it's hard to understand what's the reason is. All you need is keep on walking until God tell you to stop (read: real and true faith), and He will ask you to look behind your back. You want to know what I saw when God told me to do it? I saw that I've been very stubborn not to let go and it didn't help me to get through my trouble. I finally I knew there's someone better waiting for me allllll the time. He just waiting for the right time to come to my life and ask me if I let him to love me. It's like God is trying to say "Here's someone best for you. Not him in the past". The past is exist so you can learn from it so you'll do better in the future. So if the right person come along, you won't do the stupid mistake again.

And this man who come to my life and ask me if I let him to love me,....he doesn't give me the whole world like the lyric in the love songs. He just give me his world to me. And I know it's somehow bigger than the whole world itself :)

I could not ask for more. This is perfect.

Inspired to be Inspiring

This picture was displayed in one of friend's blackberry messenger contact. And his name is Edric Chandra. And I asked him, what is it? Is a magazine article or something? And he said yes, it is a profile article of Popular Magazine. I didn't know what's Popular, well it doesn't sound like popular to me. He said it's a grown up men magazine. Oh..well.

Anyway, I asked for the softcopy to him and he sent me to my email. I read them and I was like astonished by it. For those who don't know this guy might be astonished at the first time they read about he become a cigar manager at Wismilak. I knew that a long time ago. And it's still make me astonished though.

But what make me astonished more is his vision, they way he sees things. I don't know how he doing it, but he always see a different way, a different path, and out of ordinary, out of everyone else. I always know what he want, and he always find a thousand ways how to reach what he want. He always take the quirky weird extraordinary way to live his life.

In that article he said that he was inspired by his tukang becak the most. And I inspired by him the most. I knew this guy from junior high school and I surely learn a lot from him. I have this principle that in every troubles and every obstacles, there are ways to get through it. He tought me to not easily give up, to fight what's worth fighting for, no matter hard it is. He tought me to pierce the impossibility. And believe it or not, it's become a part of me now. So yes, if he was influenced by tukang becak, then I was influenced by him.

You guys should read this article about him in Popular Magazine September issue. This guy, is beyond amazing. And Edric, I am so much proud of you!

Check his facebook page: Edric Chandra and follow him on twitter: @EdricChandra

Getting Onboard

I just drove my sister on her way to New Zealand at 3.30 in the morning and I found myself hard to sleep.So I decided to write an entry,since I have this thought in mind.

I had a conversation with my boyfriend about marriage and engagement thing (it's a light and short conv.) and it make me thinking about several things.

How do you know when you're ready to get married?What is the sign?Well,except the financial factor and personality of course. What I'm trying to say is getting married is not that simple as getting married. It means (at least for me), that you're about to leave your "present" home and family and about to live in a "brand new" home,and maybe with other family.Now what it may seems to be a problem is..you're not that easy to leave one home to another home right?When it comes to home,it means that you found a place where you can be safe,relax,peaceful,a sactuary. Remember the phrase,there is no place like home.You just don't call a place:home,easily.It takes time.This is the sign maybe..are you ready to leave your home for over than 20 years and move in to a new home for the rest of your life?

It's not only a house that you will leave,it's family.Your family.You live with your family for over than 20 years but the next day you move out and never see them again as much as you did.

See?Move out from your "present" home and "leaving" your family to creating a new family isn't easy.You have to be ready.

And you know what, I'm not ready.Maybe it takes 1 or 2 years more for me to be ready. I'm sure time will tell :)

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I Smell Holiday

Finally I can have my holiday starting tomorrow!I'm going nowhere which is suck because I usually can't stand boredom.I need something to do and I might end up watching dvds or read books or sleeping or just sightseeing at the mall.
The funny thing is,I kinda miss my work.I just started my long holiday but I missed my office already.I miss my boss (in a normal way of course),my colleagues,my desk,my high speed wireless internet connection,my notebook,and else.I think I'm too attach with my work so once I have my long holiday like this,I will feel there's something missing.
I've just realized too that I love my job.It's not challenging as I expect but I love it.I imagine myself if someday I must quit from my job,what would I feel?It already become my daily routine,and it's kinda hard to leave it.

I hate goodbyes,really.they suck.
But every ending has a new beginning,that's what people say.so every goodbye has a new hello.and every hello means a new chapter,a new day,a new challenge to be tamed.

Right? :)
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In Law

I helped my boyfriend's mother to make a baked macaroni with bacon and cornet last night. I was quite surprised the first time because she was not only made that baked macaroni my herself, but also with her older sister and close friend IN her sister house. So I met the big family of my boyfriend which for me is kinda frightened. I never met my ex-boyfriend's family before so I felt a little bit uncomfortable last night, in a normal level.

I had an experience which made me learnt a lot about how to be polite but still be yourself to other person/group especially boyfriend related. I made a big mistake years ago where I didn't give my fully respect to my ex-boyfriend's family. I didn't realize it I was wrong at the first time. And it left me a big regret also. But I try to learn from the past so I can be better in the future.

So this is it, I face yesterday quite successful. I said hi to everyone, I offered my help cut the bacon, to slush the cheese, to crack the eggs. But the most important is I start the small talk. You can't keep in silent forever. People will think you're a loner. By start a small talk, you try to blend with them. Well, at least they know you try.

I have a secret how ease the uncomfortable part when you meet your mother in law to be: it's the power of your mind. Keep remind yourself and keep this in your head that s/he (the parents in law to be) is just human. Don't think that they're your parents in law. Just think that they're persons, your close friend's parents/family member who need to be respected. I mean, you have to respect everyone right? Make no different in your mind.

If you respect everyone no matter who they are, then you have no difficulties to respect your parents in law to be. :)

In a short words: Be casual with them. You'll never go wrong with that.

Anyway, my mother in law to be made me two baked macaronis.I love her selfmade baked macaroni. But since I saw it myself the ingredients, I think I better think twice before I consume it.

It contains: a pack of long macaronis (high carbohydrate), 2 pack of cheddar cheese (high calories (and calcium of course)), approx. 10 eggs (cholesterol! cholesterol!), 2 carts of milk (thank God it's low fat high calcium), a large pack of beef bacon (there're too much preservatives in it), and cans of beef cornet.

And this is i: 2 BAKED MACARONIS WITH BACON AND BEEF CORNET made by my boyfriend's mommy for me

Look delicious right? ;p