Palm Hands

Being in the hospital area for a period of time, make whoever around there have to sosialize themselves to interact with doctors. And for me is no exception. Being in the hospital everyday in almost two months now, make me have a lot of friends. Doctor kind of friends.

I introduce you dr. Koemalawati, she is a neurology specialize doctor and dr. Sawitri, she is eyes specialize doctor. This two doctors plus Bu Sari, doctors' administration officer and me, is a new group in the building. Sometimes the other doctors join us, and it makes me know the other doctors. I like to know them, meet them, hang out with them, and I am quite feel surprise to realize that they are doctors. I mean.. this whole time, all I know from a doctor is they wears a white atribute, looks cool and smart, detect our disease, and cure it, then bai-bai and thank you. No emotional attach.

But here, I know the different side of doctors life. In fact, they are human too, they sosialize with others, joke, tell stories, and they even good at..you know, pairing other people. So everytime they try to pairing me with this one doctor, all I can do is smile. If they're salesmen or saleswomen, not doctors, I believe they are going to be great salesmen and women. haohaohaooaa.

Today, I have this interesting thing happen. Dr. Koemala, surprisingly has this talent to read lines in palm hand. This is what she said in the time she read my hand:

My career is so-so. She even said that I am probably going to be housewife or something. But my husband is the one whohas a great career and else.

I will have a long life (oh..thank God if this happen.)

I will get married not in the long time again, she mean not in the age 30 and so on. (ohoho)

I will have a husband who has the same thought and the same heart and vision with me. (when she said this, I said "well, every couple must have a different thought." . then she said no, not always. "

I am not easily fall in love with someone. (amazingly, this is true. I just nod my head when she said this.)

In my future life, I will meet my husband once and for all. She mean like I will meet this right guy at one moment of time and - hopefully - have my happily ever after.

I know at least in my religion, I forbid to believe in any kind of prediction or whatever you may call it but in God. And I believe in God. But it still will look amazing if those prediction complete what God had planned for me (which only He the one who know until it happen in my life)

Still I remember something happened almost a year ago, when an American pastor prayed for me and said so many things about me, which is exactly me. He said that writing is truly my talent, so use it well. He said that I am a visionary person, I always look far more in the future everytime I plan something (which make me always have backup plans), and so many things else. This pastor never met me before, never knew me before, but he knew so many things about me. If it's not God, then he must be a great great liar. Well.. I believe that is a God's work through him though.

So I just going to let it all flow. What other option I have, huh? But there is something I think along with this palm hand reading session with my doctor friends. Fate will bring all of us to our destiny. To our soulmate. But what if in the real world, someone you always love isn't always be your soulmate? How you going to throw away that feeling -love- while you are destined to be together with your soulmate?

my K thing is near. >.<

Prayers

Have you ever feel so worry about something like you think you are the only one who could save youself? Like there is no one there to help you and you almost think that if you can not do this or you can not fix this or you can not reach this, no one can. I did. And it was a horrible feeling. I torture myself with those kind of worry feeling inside me and sadly, sometimes I don't realize it. I worry about my K thing too much (well you can ask Nita, she is the one who knew how panic and worry I was. uahuahuahua), I worry about my future plan that I planned and I'm afraid it won't be a reality. I worried about many else. Then here come the rescue for me, the priest or whatever you may call it in my church last sunday talked about worries. He quoted Matthew 6: 25 about worries. The priest, Pdt. Paulus Bambang is an ordinary man. But as he talk, I know this masn isn't that ordinary. He is a vice president of PT. United Tractors which it is a biiiigg company in Indonesia. And I'm kind of surprise because that kind of company has a great vice president who also a priest. Something I rarely found or perhaps it is me who never heard that kind of thing in my life. haha

Anyway, Mr. Paulus told us not to worry about everything that happen in our life. He, God, know what happen with you and He do care for you. So we don't need to worry about one or two or maybe million things in front of us, because look at the verse at Matthew, He even take care the birds in the sky! So I end up with cry that day, feeling so sorry to Him, realizing that all this time I was too worried about something to another something. I wasted my energy, my thought, my everything, and the most important I felf like I waste God.

I forgot about Him.

One more thing the pastor said to all of us that night, say right, think right, and do right.

You must say right by keep saying thank you for the belssing God gave you. You msut think right that God is care for you and He know everything that you face, and you must do right - keep doing right even everything or evetyone surround you do the opposite.

Once again! I don't try to preach here. I'm not good at it, believe me. hahahaa. All I want to say is, except that you are atheis or something, God is exist and sometimes we forget that. We work hard, we keep struggle and stress up about one problem and we think that we are on our own. We are not on our own. There is someone watching over us. The only problem is sometimes we don't realize it that soon.

On the other story, last week I visited NICU ( it is like an ICU, but this is for babies who have serious problems and need an intensive care) and there was twins!! Baby boy twins who are really really cute and lovely. They are very small and very awesome! I wish I could put on of them in my arm but I think I will get a slap from the nurse rather than have my wish come true. hoahoahoahoahaha. But poor the baby because one of them have to wear like repiratory or something to help their lungs develope perfectly. The baby cried so loud because he feel hurt and not comfortable with the machine, and when the baby cried, all I did was walk away from the incubator right away. (Ok, I start to confuse about the grammar. hahaha. OMG dragon.)

Now I believe the words that said that how miracle it is a mother deliver a baby into the world.

A human being from a human being.

At the end of my hospital walking that day, I saved a little time to pray - a silent pray- for the twins, wishing them a great future and life. I think I need to start, to save a little more time to pray - a silent pray - for more people around me, because who know, those silent prayers heard by God and who know, those silent prayers end up blessing other people.

p.s: my K examination is near. OMG. (_ _") My internship will be over in a month. oooowww yeaaaah!

haha..I just got this in my email:

AQUARIUS - The Sweetheart (Jan 20 - Feb 18) Optimistic and honest. Sweet personality. Very independent. Inventive and intelligent. Friendly and loyal. Can seem unemotional. Can be a bit rebellious. Very stubborn, but original and unique. Attractive on the inside and out. Eccentric personality.

What do you think?

Thankful

Being in the hospital area six days a week for almost one month really open my eyes about many things, especially about health. For all this time, I never miss one single day without feeling thankful to God about my health. I realize that I am in a good condition, and that's what I thankful about. But I never really-really thankful enough for a bigger-detail thing about my health.

I felt bored once in the beginning of my internship and I end up draw octopuses. A lot of it. ehehehe..But now I am very busy searching and writing one article to another article, about non medic articles to medic articles. So far, I already wrote about movie, travel and living (I wrote about Wakatobi Island in Sulawesi, and it is like heaven on earth. If you love diving, you have to go there.), how to enjoy wine, and so on. The medic article I wrote is about Whole Body MRI (Magnetic Resonance Imaging).

Recently, I have a job to design an advertising about MSCT (Multi Slice Computed Tomography) Cardiography. Well, actually I only have to compose a message that sell the CT Scan 64 Slice machine. So I begin to observe and ask the doctor about the CT Scan machine and the important part is what's to scanned. The name is dr. Nugroho and he is a heart specialize. He is a great and nice doctor, and he told me a lot of things about CAD or coronary artery disease. In Indonesia you can say it penyakit jantung koroner, which is very deathly and come up suddenly without early warning or symptoms. He is the one who make me learn a lot of things about heart especially CAD. He gave me alot of pdf files about the CAD and MSCT 64 Slice so even I am freak out because I have to understand one strange medical word to another, I learn a lot about CAD.

I watched someone did the CT scan process, I watched dr. Nugroho analyzed the CT Scan image, I watched someone did the cateter, and he showed me what is exactly the cause of the CAD. There is a plaque there in the Coronary artery which make the blood doesn't flow well. And when the plaque cover the whole artery, that's when you die.

The causes are a lot. Hypercholestrolemia or hyper cholestrol, diabete, smoking, obesite, family history in CAD, age, stress level, and so on. And from that point I know, that what we eat define what we are inside.

My mom keep telling me for all this time that a food that fried is not good. It is bad. BUt I never fully understand what is the bad side? Or maybe I know it is bad, because my mom tell me so. I never really-really understand what it is bad. But now I know. I know it is bad because the fat from the deep fried food is running with our blood in our body. And if you keep maintain how you eat that way, it accumulate and you know where it end.

I learn a lot about health and I've got a whole new experience and knowledge that I never imagine before. And guess what! I don't like veggie before. I avoid it over and over. But now, I will eat whatever vegetable is on the table. I eat and I don't ask. I eat for my health.

One more thing about the cause of CAD is the stress level. My mom once again always said that stress invite diseases. And she is actually right! So that is why I always train myself to be happy. I don't want to be stress. I want to be happy and will do anything to be happy. I can be very thankful for what I already have instead of what I don't have and I can't have. The choice is in our very hand. So dance and sing if you want, laugh and hug if you want..if it's what you need to feel happy. Happy is a good feeling.=D

So at the end, this is how I thankful to God about my health. I thankful because You make and still make my blood runs well, I thankful because You allow to move my feet so I can walk normally, I can move my hands so I can hold anything normally, I thankful to You because You make my heart beats, You still make me breath normally, You still allow my brain to work properly.

I thankful not because I have to say I thank you.

I thankful because I know what I have to thankful for.

And You really open my eyes and make me see more clearly than before.

So I am thank you to You.