Qs

What do you want the most in life?

That's my ultimate question for me these days.

I've been thinking a lot about a lot of things. About my relationship, my future, and mostly about where do I go from here. I mean, if you still in school, you know exactly where do you go from there, to the university. A little bit wider, after go to the university-mostly you have three big choices: get married if you already found the right guy or go to get your master degree or get yourself a job.

Now this is something that bothering me a lot: if the choice number one is no longer my option since I haven't ready (or he hasn't ready yet), and I have no interest to get my master degree, then my last option will be get myself a job right?

I have a job. I have a great job here. I am thankful for that. While I'm working my great job, I am preparing a long term plan: get married with my future husband.

The questions are bubbling in the air now. Who's gonna be my husband, the one I stand beside in the aisle? Is my boyfriend, in this present, is the one? How do I know that he's the one?

How's your life after married? How long it take to get there? 3 years? five? ten, by any chance?

How's our life after married? Financially, mentally, physically? Can we get along with the entire big family from both side?


I still have a lot of questions which I can't describe it all here.

I am now in the position of not sure about everything in my life. With my relationship and my future.

I'm a person who have a wish to get married soon. In my own opinion, marriage is about love and about you ready or not. It means you are ready financially, you are ready mentally, you are ready to blend yourself with someone-you love. And it can not be measured by time. It only can be decided by how good your process, luck, and God's will. So I don't mind if I have to get married when I'm 26. It's not like the end of the world.

Too many questions to be asked in once right?But I think as we grow up, we think about the future a lot more. Life is no longer a playground, where we know that everything is still settle and safe. I am now in the real world. I am a grown up women. Have to be ready, have to take risks, have to face everything by myself.

Isn't it a hard work?

Happy 23, Me!

Hello, it's good to be back again. It's been a long time since my last entry and I'm kinda miss to write here.

Life's been good to me these days. I have a great fantasic super (what else?) job, the kindest boss alive, friendly and crazy colleagues, great office, and else.

Last Monday was my 23rd birthday. I was very happy that day, because I've got an-almost-surprise from my colleagues, which, was way beyond my expectation. The surprise wasn't stop there. My two bestfriends came to my office and brought me this self-made cake:

Is it cute? :D

The last but not least, my boy gave me a wallet as a gift with funny wrapping. He glued the post it paper one-by-one until it wrap the wallet. He wrote his wish there. It's kinda cute. And funny. And silly. hahahahaharr

Well, what can I say? I'm not a huge fan of birthday. It's not that I'm not feeling grateful, it's just I don't want to be the central of attention. You know, if today is your birthday, everyone keep saying that "Happy Birthday yaaa" to me. I'm just not that person who enjoy attention.

So I keep thinking, what is wrong with me? Everyone loves birthday. Everyone enjoys birthday. And then I simplified the definition and meaning behind birthday:

Birthday for me is a special day to celebrate your birth day. And it going to be very much special if you are surrounded by the people you care and love and the people who loves you. I don't need the whole world to know it's my birthday. I just need the people I love.

Like I had two days ago. I had my best friends brought me a self-made birthday cake, they came to my office and that took me by surprise! I had my colleagues arranged a surprise for me, they gave me a little gift (a gift voucher, yay!), and I had my boy and also my best friend to be with for the rest of the night.

I'm officially 23 now. Nothing much different between before and after my birthday, but one thing I know should be different: is myself. I have to be more grateful and more thankful for what I have. My life isn't perfect. My family isn't perfect. My friends aren't perfect. But they are all I have. And I simply couldn't ask for more :)

Happy 23, me!

ps: you guys should watch 500 days of summer. It's a good movie, really.

That's two of my colleagues. love them!

A present from them! :D

That's my best friends!!! :D