There were times in my life when I felt that life is suck, life is full of disappointment, and life isn’t that beautiful like people keep saying all the time. And at some point, I realize that the world is forever complicated. So it’s me who needs to be simplified. If the world is disappointing, so then it’s me who has to be not-disappointing for others. If life isn’t that beautiful, then it’s me who has to make it beautiful in my own way.
So start with this thought, that I have to make myself happy first. How to make myself happy? is being thankful for whatever we receive and what God already gave us. I can grumble about my imperfect family, my imperfect friends I have, and imperfect me. Or I can be thankful for my imperfect but forever supporting family, my imperfect friends but always-be-there-for-you that I have, and imperfect me but forever thankful for everything. And I choose to be thankful, for this life belongs to someone bigger than any human being and He has control over everything in this and my life. He knows what the best is.
If I have a problem or tons of it, I will try to make it simpler as I can be. I learn a lot from my past experience (which is painful and hurt) that if you put overload thoughts in your head, that might explode your head and you end up with killing yourself slowly. So now I try to make it as simple as I can. Not make a deal become a big deal, not generating a single clue into something and make it a prejudice.
If someone tell something that might hurt you, be deaf.
If someone tell you something that might hurt you and you still can not be deaf, mute
If someone do something you don’t want to see, be blind
If someone do something that might hurt your feeling, be cold
If someone treat you as you don’t expect, be stupid
And you know what, sometimes it’s good to pretending to be deaf, pretending to mute, pretending to be blind, pretending to be stupid. Sometimes you just need to stop listening, stop talking, stop feeling, stop thinking too much and enjoying this life with your own way. Sometimes it’s good to not care about what other people say about you or what you should do. Sometimes you just need to go and do it in your own way.
I will put my iPod in my ears, sing along with the songs, and move my body and dance along. I will let myself free, hoping that in the time she come back – she will find herself become new and better ~~~
You can pursuit your own happiness. Surprisingly, you are the one who can create them into your own life :)))
So this is true: “the past hurt you, but it will make you stronger even more”. It’s just they, who create those sentence, forget to mention that that past will still haunt you down as a payback.
