Urgently Needed:Holiday!

I just realized that the last time I have a holiday is when I went to Bali years ago.And I really need one now!I mean I love this city,I love my job,I love my home,but I kinda need an escape time from my routine.People get bored and so do I.Imagine that you go to your office,you pass the same street everyday,you enter the same building everyday,you meet the same people everyday,you deal with everyday tasks and it all the same thing over and over again.
I don't say that I don't like it.I just need a refreshing moment,which I can rarely get.

My boss said to me and my other colleagues earlier that he's going to take us to singapore for holiday!there was two possible times,which is idul fitri holiday and christmas holiday.Idul Fitri holiday is near so it's kinda impossible.So it might be happened in christmas holiday *5 finger crossed*
So what am I suppose to do in idul fitri holiday?I really need to make a plan or two.

I still want to visit Bali and Jakarta.I have this plan to visit Jakarta in February 2011,hopefully everything is just going well *10 finger crossed include my feet!*
Anywhere will be good for me,at least I can go out from this town for a while.

Take mee pleaseee whoever you are,please take mee for a short holiday.. :(((((((
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Cash The Damn Cheque

This morning, my bos told me to cash a check in the bank. I confidently brought the cheque and the cheque only. I never cashing a cheque before since the only way to get money is from ATM. So I went downstairs in Ground Level and entering the door. The security asked me "What can I do for you?". Instead of saying I want to go to the teller, I said "I want to cashing a cheque.", so he instantly know where he suppose to direct me to.
 
So I take the queque number and sit. Then my number was called. I, again, confidently give the cheque to the bank officer and said that I want to cash the cheque.
She asked me my ID card. I said I don't bring it down with me. She said to me while she returning my cheque back that I have to fill some blanks in the BACK side of the cheque. Wodehel, why I didn't see it at the first place??? The bank officer look very confused either. I bet she confuse because I am confuse. I can tell by her face.
So I took back the cheque,go to my office then come back down again with a copy of my ID.
 
I never cash a cheque before. This kind of thing is new to me (since the way I know to get cash is through ATM machine). And I feel like a little bit embarrassed when I was in the bank, because I don't know how to cash a cheque.
 
But hey, there is always the first time for everything. I bet the bank officer didn't know the fastest method how to counting a pile of money in the first place.
All I tell here is, if you don't know how to do something or you're in the lack of one particular information about something, DO NOT hesitate to ask and do.You ask once, but you're like a lightbulb for the rest of your life (except you have alzhemir or amnesia of course). You did something and it was wrong once. But you'll be riht forever.
Do not feel ashame if you do something wrong. People do it everytime.  
 
So the next time I cashing a cheque, I am going to write the information and data needed, then come to the teller and never going to be wrong again :)

Unoo Stackooo Attackoooo!!

Just had a great weekend with my best friends today!It was traffic all over the street in surabaya,we got stuck everywhere but it was quite fun :)We - me,nyek,lucy,fenny,dewi went to PTC to visit Kosi's maket at petra interior exhibition.But we were too hungry so decided to go eat and forget the maket and whatsoever.After PTC,we went to win's pancake at G walk (+ Reagan,he's kinda busy right now so seeing him at this unplanned timing like this is always worthed)).we played othello (dewi was the one who brought it upstair but she was the one who didn't played) and UNO stacko.I always love playing UNO stacko.It always fun,you can play it with a lot of ppl,no brain needed, just a tense that there might be a possibility that the stacks is going to fall in your turn.And that tense is fun :)

I'll post the picture of our crazy UNO later.I don't why but I can't post a photo through my tumblr for blackberry.

It was a fun night.I had fun.I had my old friends with me.I had my wonderful boyfriend with me (I wish you see the way he know how to play othello and UNO,you'll be amazed!).

I just wish Lydia is still in surabaya. I kinda miss that Sydney girl :)
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Salt vs Salt

Just watched SALT the movie yesterday and I must say that Angeline Jolie is very much cool! She is sexy, very sexually appealling even when she had a gun in her hand. The storyline is good too, they successfully made me confused which side Evelyn Salt is on? First she is a CIA agent, then she turned out into a Russian spy (which is reminds me of Anna Chapman, the real-life Russian spy), then she killed the head of Russian Brainwasher and Terrorist Orkov or something, then sneaked out into White House Bunker for what? Save the world or kill the US President at the first place before she knew about the other traitor spy? Very much confusing, but not as confusing as Inception which btw is a very brilliant movie!

But it's still a goo movie to catch, only one curiousity here in my mind:

Why on earth they have to use the name Salt, instead of any other names in the world? I never have a thought that Salt could be a family name. If there is an Indonesian movie and they have a character named like Evelyn Salt, that become Evelyn Garam. Salt (like in salt and pepper) is garam in Indonesian. And the title of the movie would be GARAM. Scary.      

8th monthlyversary

It’s July 26th 2010 and today is my eight-monthlyversary for me and my boyfriend. So happy anniversary for us, I guess! :D

For me, personally, 8 months is just a short time. I mean if you still go on together with the same person, you’ll spend your LIFETIME with him/her! So 8 months is nothing. But this past 8 months is really really tought me to appreciate what I have. I’ve been through hurricanes in my love life, I loved someone but I never got happiness - something everyone deserves when they fall in love to each other. But then here come this man. I never knew where the love came from, but it happened! We are formerly best friends who used to hang out together but ended up with being a lover. It’s kinda weird at the beginning, you know, changing your setting from best friend to lover.

But from time to time, all I realize is this: that in a grown up relationship, you must found not only someone you really love, but also someone you comfort with, someone you really trust, and someone who can be you best friend and partner for a lifetime. I am lucky enough to found a man with those criterias :)

And this man of mine, he is not perfect. He sometimes can make mistakes, make me upset and else. But in the other side, I know he loves me in the way I never imagine. He knows my favorite foods, he knows my favorite snacks, he knows my favorite drinks, he knows every details about me! It really took me by surprise :)

When I am mad to him or sad or in a bad mood, he try to hug me. By the time he did it, I knew I couldn’t be mad at him anymore. When I am hopeless and I need someone I can count on and NO ONE is there for me, he is the one who show up and become my personal hero.
What I love the most from him is when he said to me that he loves me the way I am. So I don’t have to pretend to be somebody else. Well, I can’t pretend to be somebody else though - he already knew me for years as best friend!

I realize that love can change anytime, people do change everytime. But I do really wish that this particular love, this particular man I know may never be changed. I really wish he is going to grow up better in everything, but still I can recognize him as my best friend, my great boyfriend, someone I can count on and trust, and as someone I am sure I’m going to spend the rest of my life with :)

Listening

Hola fellas, I'm back! I know it's been a long time, but time seem not enough here. I've been busy with my job and my side job.hahaha. Life's also been good to me, although know sometimes I'm feeling not grateful enough with what I have and what I got.

What am I suppose to say here? I usually come up with some topic in mind, but this time is blank.Oh there a topic just crossed my mind.

Few days ago, I realized something. As you know, I'm not a perfect person. I am not some kind of someone's favorite. But I try to be better. I know and I realize that in order to be mature and wise, we have to make few or maybe lots of mistake in our life then we realize that's wrong and we fix it. Or we can learn it from other people experiences. The point is we have to learn from mistakes. And one mistake people often do and one mistake people don't realize is they don't listen to each other.

For me, to have a good listening ability is great. Few people have that. By listening more and talk less, you'll learn a lot, you study a lot about the person, about life, and else. It will helps you wiser somehow.

And I want to have that ability. I want to listen more and talk less, because I want to learn more.

But please make a difference between listening and hearing. In hearing, you just hear the voice, but in listening, you pay attention to whom you listen to. And guess what, listening is a hard work.Yes, it will drain your energy, it will make you tred and boring. But hang in there, because if you do that, that'll train level of patient too.

All I say here is, few people are willing to listen. They like to talk rather than listen. But if the world want the same thing, it must be pretty noisy, huh? :)

Journey To The Past

Have you ever haunt by your own past? Wherever you go, it follows you. You can't escape, you just can close your eyes and pretend you're not see it. But it there. It always there, in front your very eyes.

I try to forget it. And I thought I was. Until lately it bothers me again. I keep thinking why it has to be happened?Why You let it happened? You just can erase the feelings, and it didn't have to be happened and hurt both of us for the second time. But it happened. It hurt both of us, and left me with a big scar, something anybody can't heal. Even God. It only gets better, but not dissapear.

But once or twice these days, I've taken to the past for a while. It's still painful, and I know I don't want to go to that time anymore. But one thing I can't ignore, I still care about the subject related. I want him to have a great life, move along, and be happy. I do wish he has that, I do wish he know that I want that. In fact, I know something sweet between us that once or twice happened in our life can never be ours. I have to let go, I have to give up, because I have no choice.

I have to move on myself. I am now being with someone that cares a lot and I love him. He is my lover and also my best friend. I am thank-ing God for that. I just wish that this time, I have my luck to go onboard with him until forever. So I don't have to sink again, for the second time.

Letting go is really a hard work. But if you have no choice, well maybe you just have to pass it anyway. Eventhough it means that you have to get out from it, half alive.

Qs

What do you want the most in life?

That's my ultimate question for me these days.

I've been thinking a lot about a lot of things. About my relationship, my future, and mostly about where do I go from here. I mean, if you still in school, you know exactly where do you go from there, to the university. A little bit wider, after go to the university-mostly you have three big choices: get married if you already found the right guy or go to get your master degree or get yourself a job.

Now this is something that bothering me a lot: if the choice number one is no longer my option since I haven't ready (or he hasn't ready yet), and I have no interest to get my master degree, then my last option will be get myself a job right?

I have a job. I have a great job here. I am thankful for that. While I'm working my great job, I am preparing a long term plan: get married with my future husband.

The questions are bubbling in the air now. Who's gonna be my husband, the one I stand beside in the aisle? Is my boyfriend, in this present, is the one? How do I know that he's the one?

How's your life after married? How long it take to get there? 3 years? five? ten, by any chance?

How's our life after married? Financially, mentally, physically? Can we get along with the entire big family from both side?


I still have a lot of questions which I can't describe it all here.

I am now in the position of not sure about everything in my life. With my relationship and my future.

I'm a person who have a wish to get married soon. In my own opinion, marriage is about love and about you ready or not. It means you are ready financially, you are ready mentally, you are ready to blend yourself with someone-you love. And it can not be measured by time. It only can be decided by how good your process, luck, and God's will. So I don't mind if I have to get married when I'm 26. It's not like the end of the world.

Too many questions to be asked in once right?But I think as we grow up, we think about the future a lot more. Life is no longer a playground, where we know that everything is still settle and safe. I am now in the real world. I am a grown up women. Have to be ready, have to take risks, have to face everything by myself.

Isn't it a hard work?

Happy 23, Me!

Hello, it's good to be back again. It's been a long time since my last entry and I'm kinda miss to write here.

Life's been good to me these days. I have a great fantasic super (what else?) job, the kindest boss alive, friendly and crazy colleagues, great office, and else.

Last Monday was my 23rd birthday. I was very happy that day, because I've got an-almost-surprise from my colleagues, which, was way beyond my expectation. The surprise wasn't stop there. My two bestfriends came to my office and brought me this self-made cake:

Is it cute? :D

The last but not least, my boy gave me a wallet as a gift with funny wrapping. He glued the post it paper one-by-one until it wrap the wallet. He wrote his wish there. It's kinda cute. And funny. And silly. hahahahaharr

Well, what can I say? I'm not a huge fan of birthday. It's not that I'm not feeling grateful, it's just I don't want to be the central of attention. You know, if today is your birthday, everyone keep saying that "Happy Birthday yaaa" to me. I'm just not that person who enjoy attention.

So I keep thinking, what is wrong with me? Everyone loves birthday. Everyone enjoys birthday. And then I simplified the definition and meaning behind birthday:

Birthday for me is a special day to celebrate your birth day. And it going to be very much special if you are surrounded by the people you care and love and the people who loves you. I don't need the whole world to know it's my birthday. I just need the people I love.

Like I had two days ago. I had my best friends brought me a self-made birthday cake, they came to my office and that took me by surprise! I had my colleagues arranged a surprise for me, they gave me a little gift (a gift voucher, yay!), and I had my boy and also my best friend to be with for the rest of the night.

I'm officially 23 now. Nothing much different between before and after my birthday, but one thing I know should be different: is myself. I have to be more grateful and more thankful for what I have. My life isn't perfect. My family isn't perfect. My friends aren't perfect. But they are all I have. And I simply couldn't ask for more :)

Happy 23, me!

ps: you guys should watch 500 days of summer. It's a good movie, really.

That's two of my colleagues. love them!

A present from them! :D

That's my best friends!!! :D

Just In A Relationship

Hola everyone! Today is a foggy day and it is a perfect weather to get lazy at home. Anyway, enough about the weather chit chatting, I have a news to break. I am finally in a relationship with someone after almost five years I guess, being alone. And it's not easy to adapt to something that you rarely do or you did it a quite looong time ago. But unexpectingly, that thing happened two last night. he is one of my best-best friend and I've been closed to him for years as a friend. But maybe the timing was right or maybe the feeling was right, I don't know. All I know is we get close very easy, we knew each other for a very long time, and circumstances was right, and that led us to where we are right now.

For all this time, I always believe that God has a beautiful plan for me and my life. I always believe that whatever happened and whatever not allow to be happened in my life is in His hand. I always believe that He is the total control of this universe. And so I believe that the reason why He allowed me to be alone for almost five years is that He want me to see and learn from another person surround me, about how complicated human being are when they relate with another human being, how selfish they are, and how one human being fake themself to another human being just to show how good human being they are.

It's funny sometimes when I come up with this kind of reason...you know.."blaming" God for my aloneliness. But I always bring my feelings and desire of something I want to my prayers. He is the only one I'm not lying about my feelings to. And He really do answers my prayers, even if the answer is the answer I never expected.But really, no matter how hard I tried to have a

relationship with someone I like, I always successfully failed to have one.

So funny how this time, when I brought my feelings to my prayers, and I asked Him to open the way if He also want me to be with him, He really did it. Everyone look happy for us, and the most important is I already learnt a lot about how a relationship suppose to be -- give them wings to fly. It means that you have to let your couple being themself in front of you, not faking or being someone else they don't.

I believe this too: that at the end - at the very very end, it is very important and relieving if you know that someone you are with, is the one who can hold your hands and stay beside you no matter what happen, and they still love you for who you are, even if your world is crashing down.

All I'm saying is you better not in hurry to find someone. It is much more better for you to live alone, than you spend your time with a guy or a girl who doesn't fit you or you're in pain when you're wth them. It is good if you already found someone great and you get married ASAP. Then you're the lucky one. But for me, it's better if I wait a little longer to find someone I really fit with, then build my life together with him. The point is I don't want to regret anything in the future.

I remember one sentence my friend once told me. If you want to know your "jodoh" or whatsoever, find someone who can balance you out. Or in Indonesian you can say it: mengimbangi. And I think that's true. Not everyone can balance us out. So if you feel like you already found that person, what else do you looking for?